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I hate holidays and birthdays.
Kinda strange isnt it ?
Well, just the thought of spending these events make me look in despair at what i have. Valentines Day, a day to commemorate the loneliness , the helplessness and to envy those who have, while those who dont simply, sleep and hope that the day passes by like the next second.
Weeks before my birthday, i was all excited and looking forward to it. Yet simply a day before, i wished that i hadnt got a birthday at all. No one would celebrate it anyway, no one.
The feeling is just like, finding a locked treasure box, while you attempt to unlock it and get filled with anticipation. Yet after much effort, you find nothing inside.
Just like it was during common tests, you couldnt wait for it to end. Ironically when i finally does, you get the feeling "....so what now... " instead you just miss the studying which actually keeps you occupied. I've just realised a thing.


My life sucks.